Peace

I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. I think I finally fell asleep around 2am and was up again around 5. Too much was rolling around in my head. The more I thought about what I needed to decide, the further away from making a decision I got. I prayed and I just let it all out. I needed something. Shortly after my appointment with the neurosurgeon, I started thinking I wanted to talk to my endocrinologist. I just wanted to hear his thoughts on what the neurosurgeon had said. My endocrinologist is extremely busy. I wasn't sure how soon I could get in to talk to him if I made an appointment. I thought about just calling and talking to his nurse but I really wanted to talk to him personally. I decided I would actually go to his office and see what I could get to happen but wasn't sure what to even say to the receptionist. I keep trying different scenarios out in my head as I was getting ready for work this morning. Suddenly my phone rang. I looked down and saw the clinic name my endocrinologist is at (as well as most of my family's other doctors). It was 7:35am. I immediately thought, is that him? And quickly thought, no way! But why would anyone from the clinic be calling me this early, they're not even open? I picked up and IT WAS HIM!! I couldn't believe it! He knew I had had the lumbar puncture done but didn't even know I had been in again yesterday. He just called me out of the blue. But I knew, it wasn't out of the blue. God is so good. I updated him on everything and then asked him his thoughts. He said he would start with the steroids. He also said he would give me a glucometer so I could track my blood sugar and report it back to him. If necessary, he could put me on medication if my blood sugar got too high. He seemed very optimistic that it wouldn't be a problem. He told me to let him know which way I decide and that was that. I am still in shock but really shouldn't be. God is so aware of each one of us.

I have talked to several other people including my gynecologist, and one of my most favorite nurses (my sister in law). Obviously, I have also prayed a lot and came to the decision to go ahead and try a round of steroids. I will be on them for three weeks and then we will do another MRI to see if it has shrunk at all. I also have a date of December 10th for a biopsy IF the steroids do not work and we need to do one. I still don't like the idea but I feel at peace that this is what I need to do right now. So if I look a little fluffier the next time you see me, you'll know why.