Embracing Uncertainty

I definitely hit the in-law jackpot when I married into my sweet husband's family. Although a bit strange at times, they are some of the most loving, caring people I have ever met. His family decided to hold a family fast today on my behalf. One of my brother-in-laws and his family just called me on FaceTime to let me know that they loved me and that all of them, including my sweet nieces and nephew, fasted for me. Which is not an easy thing to do as an adult, let alone when you're a child. I am so deeply touched by their faith and their love for me. I do not feel deserving of any of it but I am so incredibly grateful for each one of them nevertheless. I know many are praying for me. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart. I feel your prayers and my Heavenly Father's spirit is so near. 

My back is still sore. I was told that the pain should have gone away by now. I'm hoping that it doesn't turn into something else or becomes a chronic problem. I heard back from my doctor's nurse that my doctor is gone on teaching assignments and the soonest appointment they had is on September 30th. So, more waiting again for the next step. You would think I would be used to this by now but I was pretty irritated.

I recently listened to a podcast that really wasn't referring to health problems but being in the circumstance I am, I took it that way. She talks about embracing uncertainty. "The only thing that is certain is uncertainty." I think the hardest thing for me is not knowing what I'm really up against yet. I decided to research that a little more and this is what I'm going to try and do to embrace uncertainty:

*Go slow and lean into the pain - I want everything to hurry up so I can avoid the pain and unpleasant feelings that keep surfacing. Instead, I am going to work on leaning into those tough feelings and try to understand them. This also involves taking a break when I need it to build my strength too.

*Giving myself permission to relax and let things take its course - There is a lot to think about and stress about. I frequently find myself playing the "what if" game. Here's the thing, things are going to happen the way they are supposed to whether I stress about them or not. So, it's just not helpful to stress.

*Have faith -  Sometimes faith can be easy and sometimes it can be so dang hard. Just got to keep trusting in Him!